I went to a blog tonight that was mentioned in a friend's blog.
The writer was talking about rejections - which I always read about - and said that we must recognize that grief is part of the rejection process. I sometimes forget that grief is such a huge part of our lives. At least mine.
Every day, there is a moment of grief that can be used. Eye doctor today. Good news and yet not quite. A bit of an astigmatism for my little one. Now that doesn't seem bad, but anything that might make her life a bit more difficult, makes me sad. So I mourned it. Properly. For about two seconds. That's all it was worth.
My son-in-law picked up a call from me on my daughter's cell. He and I are estranged. Seriously. I was furious. As always, he was obnoxious. I had to mourn the feelings that came with talking to him. I had to mourn the fact that I didn't get to talk to my daughter.
These are little things. But honestly, each day, if I can remember to look at a thing that has caused me a wee bit of sadness, give it its moment of mourning and grief, then I will waylay anger and fear. Those are important things to be rid of. They promote depression.
Oh - I had to mourn the fact that I won't be able to go to Dragon*Con again this year. One of my favorite authors will be there.
I've got the Skyline Conference to go to. So that will be fun. I think I best remember also to rejoice on a daily basis.
Life is convoluted.